Day 1:

And so it starts. My journey to “Find Nirvana”…

I’ve had three “Day 1’s” in my DCI career. All of them different, all of them special.

Today was different however, for the first and only time, I wasn’t sure if I really wanted to be here.

In the past years, Drum Corps was by far the only thing I ever wanted to do. Being away from it was the worst feeling ever and often felt confusing and meaningless. I know it will end up feeling like that after a few more days, but today made me truly question if this is something I’m capable of.

I believe these feelings are only here because of the current state of my mind and life. As I write and as I go throughout my day – attempting to become more present – I can’t imagine doing anything else and I know this summer will help me.

As for right now, 12:51PM, although I’m still unsure of my ability to complete a summer like this, I know that this family of Vanguard will support me no matter what.

Very blessed to be here, ready to the next step.