Another day where I’m questioning if the way I feel is ok, and if the actions I take afterwards are justified.

I think I’m becoming more aware of why I feel how I do, but my patience is tested a lot during the day (welcome to drum corps).

I can’t seem to get ignore a certain member of the corps. There’s things they do that hit just the right (or wrong in this case) part of my brain. I talked to Max, our section leader, about if the way I feel is even justified, because it’s starting to affect my mood and behavior towards them.

Max agrees with me, however the problem is not something that we can fix. Even if we could, it’s not MY responsibility to do so. Therefore, my only option is to ignore it and do my own thing.

I’ve been working on conflict resolution, and solving problems that pop up with maturity. So while this answer is the opposite of what I’m trying to be better at, I think I need to know when a problem IS “un-fixable”.

I need to learn the difference, and not give up too early, but also give up when needed.

Tomorrow will be great! I’m grateful to max for helping me.