I haven’t wrote for the past few days, lots of moving and busy days. I also think I just needed more time to myself to process and think about what’s occurring.

I’ll start writing these throughout the day, like a normal journal.

We woke up like any other day, new visual staff, new drill. The process has changed a bit, but the members mostly lead the process.

Our section has been called out a few times. We talk and have fun, but not everyone can flip the switch as fast as others.

After a long time of doing this, my switch is pretty good and I can lock in pretty fast. However, one thing I’m learning is that others can get distracted by my jokes or actions.

Knowing this, I’ve dialed back just a bit, making sure I’m clean before goofing.

In these past few days, I’m much calmer, less stressed, physically and mentally well. Not much upsets me, unless they take away some of our time. It’s times like these that I have trouble understanding the same feelings I do when I’m down. I think practicing more self reflection, sitting with feelings and understanding them, and not letting basic fundamental habits slip.

Anyways, I’m super excited to start composing and playing again next semester. I’ll be in a wind quintet, jazz stuff, and working towards NTC.