Again, it’s been awhile. I’ve seemed to being drifting away from my original goal. I’m starting to scroll mindlessly again. I’m starting to get frustrated with my peers more and more. I am becoming more and more disappointed in my experience everyday. This summer is a summer for me to get better, and build healthy …
Another day where I’m questioning if the way I feel is ok, and if the actions I take afterwards are justified. I think I’m becoming more aware of why I feel how I do, but my patience is tested a lot during the day (welcome to drum corps). I can’t seem to get ignore a …
I haven’t wrote for the past few days, lots of moving and busy days. I also think I just needed more time to myself to process and think about what’s occurring. I’ll start writing these throughout the day, like a normal journal. We woke up like any other day, new visual staff, new drill. The …
The days are getting harder, and my mind can only hope for a slim break On my journey to “Find Nirvana”, I catch myself being really affected by things falling apart around me. Today I could feel the tension within our section, and I upset me thinking that we weren’t ok with one another. I …
Today was a learning experience. I yelled at a section mate today, it was uncalled for and not needed. I typed yesterday that behavior like that from me isn’t acceptable, and today I broke that promise to myself. I’m certainly grateful for challenges that arise. However, I need to face the challenge after I process, …
Day 8: Today was a struggle! Brass and Visual were pushing us, and we’re realizing that week 1 is no more. I messed up quite a few times today, the first block upset me a bit. I’m not one to lose my cool too often on tour, but I feel like our standard should be …
Day 6-7: The exhaustion yesterday got to me. Not much to say and not much time to say it last night. I’m grateful for the Heat winning game 6! Other than that, I got plenty of sleep! Today we played the full show for the first time. The environment was not the best, cold Oregon …
Day 5: MY KNEE Grrrrr my knee… My Knee decided to swell up and immobilize me near the end of our last block, not the worst time of day to do it, but I’d rather not have to sit out. Today in my journey of “Finding Nirvana”, I made quite a bit of progress. I …
Day: 4 As I continue on my Journey to “Find Nirvana”, I am practicing the same few things daily to build great habits. These habits will follow me into daily life in or out of the activity, and these habits will help me build a more mindful and present life. Gratitude, Affirmations, and Writing. These …
Day 3: Today I read some of my other book “Don Quixote”… The first few pages alone were incredibly insightful and taught me something about myself. The writer of the story is scared that, with who he is and where he came from, people would not read his book. The book that he spent so …